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Everything posted by fox

  1. Three new writing ideas. I have no idea if I'll make time for any of them, but having real writing ideas (as opposed to work-related promotion/ad writing ideas) is really lovely.
  2. I mean the sub-forum name is great, but the thread is fun, too. What made you happy today? A picture. A picture of a friend I miss made me happy today. And he looks happy, and that's how I love him and remember him. Happy. And it made me happy (in a bittersweet way) to see that, and I'm glad it's here.
  3. It's a forum of many emotions. Today. I put too much responsibility on myself. As a general rule. But today was a big example of that. I'm trying to blame myself for everything that's going sideways in my life, and it's bullshit. I absolutely have responsibility, but it's not a one-way street and I need to remember that.
  4. Remembering that I'm worth loving. (By my Self. Like. Obviously the people who love me, but I'm actually worth my own love. I'd forgotten that. In a monumental way. I'm getting a glimpse tonight. It's powerful and amazing and I'm happy for it and I hope I can keep and grow this feeling.)
  5. (The) Because (Thread)

    Because first it made me sad. And because then it made me really fucking frustrated. And because then it motivated me to prove a bitch wrong. And because THEN it made me amused. Because she's not a good person. Because she is not innocent. Because she is deeply, DEEPLY fucking flawed. Because I'm not fucking broken. I'm bruised, but I'm not fucking broken. Because GFY, asshole.
  6. What made you sad?

    Editing something old. Because of how it could be used now. If it could be used now. Because it would be. Because of course it would be. Fuck.
  7. @Spyder That's badass. @hirondelle - did you know about this?
  8. Hold on. Wait. What...?

    WHOA. WhatsApp. I HAVE WHATSAPP, SPY. Wanna chat!?
  9. Hold on. Wait. What...?

    We're so out of touch, Spy. Three or four years. Ugh. Rad piece, though! I really dig that. And I love the translation. Baller.
  10. (The) Because (Thread)

    Because shoveling. Without you, and your gym counterpart, I would have just cried all day. INSTEAD, I worked out. SO. Win.
  11. Weeeeeeeeee! Spinning like a top. Guys. Life is balls. Just. Like okay, I know things are good and there's good. But fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck can it just go suck a fucking cock. Today sucks. Yesterday sucked. I wanted really bad things. It was ugly. THANKFULLY there was shovelling. And vodka. And then more shovelling. Because fuck.
  12. I love that you exist and that you drive that whole thinking thing that we do. But. Could you MAYBE just hold on to one positive thought? ...one time...? I'm having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. Like. I joke, but today was bad. It's not awful right now, because I just dove all-in on a project for work. Having typed that, I'm sure it'll get bad again - if history tells me anything. I am absolutely unable to focus on anything positive today. I mean that's fairly standard, but usually there's something. Nope. Noooooooooooope. The world is shit, I hate everything*; please stop, I'm getting off. I am living and breathing for the moment my children are in bed and I can go have a hot tub, read, and go to fucking bed. *This is actually wholly inaccurate. I don't hate everything. I just really, really hate myself.
  13. What would you rather.....

    Childbirth. Always childbirth.
  14. Television: Childhood TV Shows

    He-Man, She-Ra, and the My Little Ponies were top three. There were others, but those were most important.
  15. I just want to eat all of the Halloween candy. ALL OF IT.

    1. Timberwolf


      You could share some with me.  LOL

    2. fox


      Nope. Nope, I really couldn't. ALL OF IT. ...means I just can't share. :D 

    3. Timberwolf


      I'll just have to find a way to tie you down.  LOL.

  16. Better late than never

    Welcome back, MC!
  17. What made you sad?

    Oh no. I'm so sorry, @hirondelle. What an awful story and an awful, heartbreaking event for that poor man. I just. Fuck. See. People. My dog isn't always safe for other dogs, she's hyper assertive - not aggressive, though it can look that way - and may not be gentle, especially with smaller dogs. But I'm hyper aware of that and very, very careful about where she is and how she is at all times. I don't understand why people can't take responsibility for their animals. The animals are doing animal things, they're not to blame. The people. The irresponsible, unthoughtful people. And you're beautiful. Body, mind, heart, and soul. I'm sorry you're experiencing that thought. My sads: just when I thought it couldn't possibly get worse - when, in fact, it was so much better and more beautiful and hopeful than it had been in a long, long time - it got worse. Much, much worse.
  18. My boys are coming back! En route right now. Hugs soon!
  19. My co-worker is an unprofessional, lazy, entitled asshole. His latest example of utter lack of awareness may make ME look unprofessional and uncaring. I fucking want to rage-quit and just go fucking doula. Fuck.
  20. Foods!

    I made spaghetti squash this week! First time ever. It was lovely. It's not photo worthy, but the cider I had with it was! (I had to jack a photo from IG. Apparently I deleted the original. Hah! BUT CHECK OUT THAT GLASS. They're new to us and I LOVE them. They were Husband's grandfather's. ...and the squash is fully visible in the background.) And yeah @PyroCJ - agreed, you should post your love story. It's lovely!
  21. What made you sad?

    I have NO idea, but here we are. By rights, I should be happy (see happy thread), but I woke up in a super shitty, depressed mood. I'm trying to be gently firm with myself. This is something I CAN talk myself out of. It will be better when I'm distracted by work. I THINK it's because I haven't been eating super well this week (I have been, until the evenings. There's no one here and I have time. APPARENTLY that's what I need to get my binge on. So I have binge guilt, not eating well guilt, and not having accomplished as much academically, or, frankly, domestically, as I had wanted to this week. BUT. I have gymmed every day so far, and will again today and tomorrow, I did get academic and domestic shit done, and I HAVE pwnt one personal goal. So. SEE FOX...? You're doing okay, be a bit more kind to yourself....
  22. I got some shit done. Husband took the boys to visit his parents this week. I stayed home (largely because this is a busy season in my line of work and the recruiters be recruitin'...out of office. They "need" someone on campus, or so I've been hearing). So I've also had some really solid fox time. I've had guilt, but mostly I've been able to enjoy it. Annnnnnnd I got some research done for my project. I'm no goddamn further ahead with a fucking solid thesis, but I found some resources (INCLUDING some 17th Century midwifery texts and 18th Century health guides. Pretty fucking nifty) so that's good.
  23. Weather

    Hey @Spyder - we had snowflakes this morning. If that makes you feel better about Canadian weather.
  24. Research project help?

    Also. You. Dude. I've been considering a pregnancy/birth/allthethingsassociated thread recently, I JUST MAY DO THAT. Because I am a birth nerd. And I love to hear/read stories. All of them. Every story is important and valid. (And YES. The bond. OMG. So helpful. That's part of the reason I had such successful birth experiences. Not my midwives per se, but my doula. She is my goddamn heart and soul.)
  25. I need to narrow my topic for a research paper for the History class I'm currently in - The History of Childbirth and Women's Bodies. I want to focus in on pregnancy and infant loss (miscarriage, abortion, stillbirth and the like) and how women were expected to behave in their grief and mourning process. But, that's too big. So. I need to narrow. I'm just not sure exactly how to go about doing that. Would it help to choose a timeframe? Probably. I like the idea of middle England (LARGELY because pre-Anglican midwives were actually given the rite of baptism in emergency situations, due to infant loss and the barring of men from the birthing chamber. Because that's fucking brilliant and I am in awe of it), but I think colonial America would be fascinating and much more in line with my actual interests (modern reactions to pregnancy and infant loss, and grief and bereavement). AND I think I'd like to focus on midwife birthing, largely because it's my personal favourite model of pregnancy, birth, and postpartum healthcare. Help?