My Fat Ass

@Dulcet, I'm sorry to hear that you were having some problems.  I'm glad you found your way through it.  We are always here for you.

Well loss like that is hard to ever let it go. It stays with you, and I am sorry you have gone through this.    In my experience it helps me to type it up even if no one reads it. I have an ongoing word file on my laptop just called “life”. It has pretty much all my memories good or bad. Which I keep adding to. Just my way of dealing with trauma and grief. Even if it’s just to listen or read your messages we are here, just a message away. 

Well I come and I see all your comments thank you all. I will post update soon. I have been away and I will explain more soon

Absolutely true @Kethlia!

Start strong, keep stepping forward enjoying the everyday accomplishments, take a breather, greet the morning sun, thank the gentle moon and lastly take the next step forward after each breather.