@Moonhawk, oh brother. NL will always be your home and safe place. My heart really goes out to you and your family. As @hirondellesaid, if you every need a video chat, we are always here, just let us know. I will be honest, I can't even begin to imagine where you are at, but I am a great listener. I wish I was there now so I could give you a big old wolf hug, brother.