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Oh Moonhawk I see that that you posted this in May but I only just noticed it (thanks Keth for drawing my attention here). I'm sorry that you are going through so much... Urgh why is life so difficult!? I sending love and hugs. 

Oh Keth, what a difficult time you have had.  How brave of you to bear it, how strong of you to share it.

To answer your questions:

1. Is writing about my experience a healthy way to accept it?

Only you can answer that, Be honest, is it?

2. Shall I continue to write more entries for this topic?

Only if the answer to Q1 was 'yes'. Was it?

I would love to say something wise, but in the face of so much suffering that would be rude to even try. 

All I can say is we are always here (or in FB messenger) if you need us. I love you my friend.

Also if you haven't already please watch this 

Thank you for sharing here Moonhawk. I love you and this is your home and safe place. I'm sorry that you are going through this.. If you would like a video call with me I am more than happy to make that happen. Regarding your child please reach out to Jamie... His daughter Fairlight is now his son Arthur. He will understand. If you would like me to reach out to him for you just let me know.

Love you @Moonhawkand thank you for popping in and updating us

18 hours ago, Guest Paul Taylor said:

And to think I only happened upon this link as a result of researching the name or phrase *'Rattle-Papanna', which was oft used in my childhood of the fifties & sixties, in the north England, UK ... how about that for a coincidence?!

 

So still non-the wiser as to whether it was a completely made-up word or if its meaning has been lost in the midst of time, I read your blog and can affirm I think, that most of us feel at certain points in our lives, that indeed we do begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel (of life) or the top of the ladder hoves into view through a hard climb of life.  Our heads tell us we're still fast in our prime, yet the body components begin to show signs of weakening or failing completely and often, just at the time for us for various reasons.

 

Anyway, enjoyable blog.  Keep up the good work and (another English sayimg) 'look after the Pennies & the Pounds will look after themselves'.

 

*Rattle-Papanna was a term used by my Grandma for one who would chatter incessantly!

Thank you Guest Paul Taylor for your lovely comment!  I hope you come back to read my comment on your comment and decide to become a full Northlands member.  I am also from the UK  (east midlands though which is only North to folk from Surrey) and my gran and then my mum called me Rattlepapana - thus the name of this blog.

21 minutes ago, Dulcet said:

I've noticed some things do not count as points. Can we get a more complete list of things that do and do not count as points?

Will you stop doing things you don't get points for?

Masks are mandatory and you get a fine for not wearing them. 

The Thai CDC is a DEPARTMENT of Disease control and they fight back and forth with the Thai Ministry of Public Health ovr who is running the show / making decisions.  And then the PM goes on tv and says something totally made up and new haha.

Thus we have no clear vaccine policy. 

Yeah we were much closer to ground zero so we watched it kicking off with alarm while USA and Europe were going "hey look at that virus over there, the people of Wuhan are being so brave singing to each other on their balconies" but never thinking it  would travel that far.

I love you so much! Thank you for sharing your life with me.

Thank you for loving me @Timberwolf and don't worry about the 16 years thing, sometimes it feels like it... Sometimes it feels like 60. But mostly it feels like yesterday.

I love you! 

He was a really lovely human.

2 minutes ago, Timberwolf said:

I was simply the victim of the laws of hockey I think,  

lol yes - and they trump the laws of physics even

22 minutes ago, Timberwolf said:

Yes, I know.  I was a bit of a trouble maker.  

it is how you distance yourself from it all with "and caused me"

actually "which upset me, so I hit him" would be more honest, lol - but "which caused me" is better... like you were simply victim of the laws of physics  

This is my favourite sentence "they slashed out goalie to knock the puck loose, which upset me, and caused me to hit that player and sending him flying" 

Love this post so much

DO NOT THINK LIKE THIS!!  OMG you got there, and you got your family there safely - well done you!  That in itself is an amazing achievement. Remember everything you do you are modelling for your children.  You want your kids to grow up and be able to take care of themselves... to judge when to push and when to say 'no more' and set a boundary.  Today you modelled self care and limit setting.  Let them in a little, be vulnerable.  Who knows teaching them this may save their lives in the future - far more valuable that a fishing trip.  You are an amazing father and husband - you have built your business out of nothing and fight so hard for them.

You definitely can. Well done you for having a bit of an adventure today  

Prayer helps as does meditation. Maybe your wife could benefit from a few therapy sessions too if you can afford it. Keep talking to each other and loving each other. Keep working at it. You are getting there. 

Hey @MoonhawkI read this the other day at work and wanted to wait until the weekend to reply when I could read it again more thoroughly. I'm sorry you are (still) going through it and of course I wish I could help... Think of some advice or some mind blowing YouTube video or TED talk that will work a miracle for you. But obviously it isn't that simple. I'm glad you have a therapist... I also have a therapist I'm seeing for anxiety and depression though nothing like what you are going through.  Maybe we can lure @Spyderin to comment as he has also suffered from anxiety in the past. Not sure how he dealt with it... Meds therapy or ultimate Frisbee

Glad your business is taking off and your lovely wife is supporting you. You WILL get through this and we WILL be here cheering for you every step of the way. Love you Hawk boy. 

Oo a blog post - lovely.  I love you number 16

I don't have any useful advice hun. But know I'm here if you want to chat. Here Facebook messenger, line WhatsApp. 

So sorry you are feeling this way Tika.  I understand the off switch thought... I have been there too - but now I am glad it doesn't because maybe I would have used it, and I wouldn't be here now to appreciate coming through? But as I think you understand coming through takes work and until you find the thing that makes a difference, trying all the things one inevitably tries seems to pointless and futile.  Don't isolate yourself though hun.  As tempting as it is - that way is full dark.  Find new people maybe? 

I am sorry you are in this situation Soulie. I hope your body heals and you find the motivation or inspiration to push through this aversion. You will always have us here... At least we aren't the annoying people (I hope)