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15 hours ago, hirondelle said:
From the description of your blog post (which I am looking forward to reading) it sounds like you need this t-shirt
https://thespark.company/products/riots-not-diets-feminist-t-shirt
Accurate.
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A lot a lot a lot of Amy Winehouse these days.
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9 hours ago, hirondelle said:
Where is this post? I went to your blog and couldn't see it.
I haven't posted it yet. I wrote it. I don't hate it, but it doesn't feel ready so Ima work on it more today. Thank you for looking.
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I don't want to playact it. No "*" or "/" actions. (You can. That's not a judgement. It's just not something I can do. Right now, maybe anymore, I'm not sure.)
I've been thinking about a curious little fox curled up into a cinnamon roll ball in the corner of a field, near its forest border. The season is whatever you want it to be and the sounds are whatever you hear when you traverse a forested field. Foxy is dozing, though, and in their subconscious is the foggy thought (memory) of an onyx obelisk. It makes me smile a bit.
Tomorrow is his anniversary. Like two years ago (below), I'm not sure where to write this. I'm sad because I haven't been able to talk with him in more than nine years (nine fucking years), but I'm happy that I still get to talk to (at) him. I've thought about him a lot this year. I've missed him a lot this year. I've loved him a lot for more than a decade.
I do, Sugar. I miss you so damn much. A lot of the time. You will never not be at the front of the line, promises promises. Thank you for that, by the way. I never said thank you for that. I don't think I knew how much it meant to me then. I don't know that I still do, fully, now. I know that I'm crying now, so I should wrap this up before words get more blurry.
I just love you, ogre. So fucking much.
(Look at that fucking face - below. How beautiful was he, holy moly. We were so lucky to have known him. I am so lucky to have known him.)
On 7/25/2019 at 10:08 PM, fox said:I don't know where to write this. It makes me sad - I actually surprised myself with a pretty great session of tears, I thought I was done there - but I can't be sad for the experience of him.
Today (for me) is ogre's anniversary of passing and I miss him. He will always be a love of my life. He will always be at the front of the line. And I will always regret not hugging him. (Look at him. He is so, so beautiful.) So I'm really, really sad. But I got to know him. I got to chat with him. He was one of my people. He was genuine and kind and fierce, and I am really, really happy that I knew him.
I miss you, honey. Always, and so very much.
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Maybe "happy" isn't the right word, I'm a bit more numb than I'd like these days, but I feel a bit less weighed down after writing (a blog post about bullshit diet culture) and actually, soulfully communicating (hate. Being vulnerable is hard and itchy and I don't like it), and also raging (about The Patriarchy).
Today is weird. Ima go for a walk.
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On 7/17/2021 at 8:04 AM, hirondelle said:
I am rusty too to be honest. More accustomed to talking to myself than others
Sammmmmmme.
Hi hi hi hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii all around!- 1
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9 hours ago, hirondelle said:
IKR, Netflix be stealing my best years too
Yupppp. Is...fun....
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8 hours ago, Timberwolf said:
@fox, I might know a way to link your blog in the blog area. When I have a chance, I’ll have a look and let you know.
All good, Wolf. But thank you for thinking of that!
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9 hours ago, hirondelle said:
That happens also. Can you write yourself out? Or float yourself out on a lake of Rye?
Probably, but when I get into a pit of despair I have blinders one. It's an obstacle.
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Yes! I am not and will not be A Blogger. I do not make the time for it. (Gorram Netflix.) So. I just blather when I feel inspired to blather.
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I mean, on that note, I just wrote myself into a shitty dark corner, so there's some fucking life/Universe balance for you.
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Hey hey!
Do any of you cats have a non-NL blog? I built a new one semi-recently (after my brain melted): https://whiskycoffeecrows.wordpress.com/
(Zero promises for regular posting. I've made those promises before and am right shit at keeping them, so I shall save myself the guilt and just keep some space.)
How about you folks? Any bloggity bloggerinos?
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Things have changed. Oooh boy, like a LOT since 2017. Which, arguably, they should. Because that's a few years. But damn, 2017 was a shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitty year in my life/head.
But that's not where we are. We're here. In 2021.
And you know what? I'm divorced, I own my house, I changed my job (an organization), I took a long medical leave, I started "happier brain" meds (SSRIs). I need to layer therapy back into that in a big way, but these are good changes. I still have shit days, but most of them, recently at least, are because I'm facing some big past demons that I need to slog away at. I don't like 'em, but they're important to face and so face them I shall.
So. Still #lovehate-ing my skull meat.
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Ohhh. Yes. I'm interested. A) I need to make a routine of regular writing, B) I really want to explore creative non-fiction and this could help, and C) I have Some Shit to work through and this might be a good opportunity to tackle it at a different (non "just" journal angle). I won't make lofty promises, but I will commit to trying. Thank you for inviting me.
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Happy birthday.
I love you. I miss you.
Always.
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Happy I knew him. So thankful he is a part of me and my life. Thankful to be able to miss him. To love him. My life is so much richer for having him in it.
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It's been eight years. (Well. It will have been eight years tomorrow, but here we are.) I really miss him. I miss him a lot this year.
Dammit.
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Diablo 3. Renewed interest. Necro expansion. Fun!
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all about love by bell hooks
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I mean. It COULD be banana on pizza. So....
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Locke & Key
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Billy Joel - Tell Her About It
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The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes (Gaimain)
Because non-graphic novels are too much for me right now.
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Also a lot of tea. And coffee.
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Foxy has a hummingbird tattooed on her person now. There are a few reasons, but he's my favourite.