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Medication may not be forever, so hopefully that's a something. Maybe it's just for now. To help get things straightened out.

You seem to have small wins across the board. I love that. That is good. Somethings. Little somethings.

Mental health day.
Reading and writing and coffee.
New friend chat.
Rye and writing.

On 7/10/2019 at 7:05 AM, Lightningfall said:

I watched American Gods.  Not bad.

I haven't watched Good Omens, but I did see an article that said that a bunch of people, like thousands, asked Netflix not to make another season.  Netflix, of course, agreed.  The problem being that Amazon Video made it, not Netflix.  I laughed and laughed as I read it.

You have space here. Always always.

I'm glad it was an okay day the other day. Still some roughness, but looks like still okay.  This is a big deal. Worth celebrating. I hope the week is going okay, Sugar.

Felt the need to write, so took time to write.

I have nine new somethingorothers on the go. MOST OF THEM are semi-poetic. Poetry is SUPER not my thing. This is fucking weird. (Two of them I actually like.)

Ooh! Gym and pool. SOLID! That will be awesome!

Looking forward to reading the updates, Wolf.  Good job on your journey!

If we're allowed to struggle, so are you.

Ugh. MH. Just. Ugh. That's rough af. 

Would it help to not read literature on side effects and/or anxiety/panic attacks? Without a shadow of a doubt, I understand the pull to that. I do it, also. I am a manic anxiety researcher. If something is going sideways, I need to know as much as possible. But. If it's adding to the issue in ways, is there any way to cold turkey it, or balance it with something else? Some fiction, or other research?

I'm really glad you have a med to try, a psychiatrist to work with, and that you're working on diet and exercise. Those are great, great things. 

Keep us in the loop? I'd love to know how things are going. (And hey - reach out of you want to chat. I have all the fucking apps.  )

Much love, hon!  

New friend.  

Restarting Mating in Captivity by Esther Perel.

On 7/10/2019 at 5:47 PM, Timberwolf said:

So true!  @hirondelleloves it as well.

Of course she does. We have exceptional taste.

Good Omens

American Gods

Anyone else watching?! 

LOVE them. Love. Especially Good Omens. I should think obviously. I mean Gaiman, Pratchett, TENNANT, and Sheen. Like. That wasn't ever going to fail. And the Who hints and tributes have been super fun, also.

American Gods I'm not quite finished, but almost. I LOVE Mr. Nancy. DAMN Orlando Jones does a beautiful job. And Mad Sweeney. So much love. It's a joy to watch. A fucking joy.

LOVE this show. Love. Haven't watched since s13? I think. Maybe. Could be 12. I'll catch up. Someday. BUT LOVE. A lot.

Awh. Hon.  Much, much love. Speedy recovery wishes! I hope you get lots of rest and feel better super soon.  

On 4/14/2019 at 9:24 AM, Timberwolf said:

Is this any good?

We just watched The Change-Up with Ryan Reynolds and Jason Bateman.  Super funny movie.

We also just watched The Ritual, which was really spooky and good.  Really enjoyed it.

@Timberwolf - Well. I mean. It was okay. Entertaining af, but I wouldn't necessarily write home about it.

I believe this:

It's funny when you consider how much self-sacrifice accompanies accommodating people, and similar (and almost worse) self-sacrifice at the thought of not harnessing that assertiveness at the risk of changing relationships based on probably unfair accommodation by establishing and strengthening boundaries. 

I feel this on a hard fucking visceral level.

However. My most primary relationship is shifting in a huge way, so my boundary concerns are probably vastly different at this juncture. That said, I think anyone who loves you will appreciate positive, healthy evolution and will work with you, even when it's uncomfortable and difficult. It won't always be harmonious and it will get messy, but it will be worth it and they will recognize that. imo.

1 hour ago, hirondelle said:

Counseling session. Great, but ugh. So many things, y'all. Life can be HEAVY.

I MIGHT get to co-facilitate a grief group with our hospice centre. I've done it before and LOVED it. This would be a new program. I REALLY WANT TO DO THIS. ...and, added bonus, it would work really well into my intended Masters program.

I have been through four counselors before finding The One (for my current life). I have been seeing her for over a year now. It began with a story about an aspect of my personal life that I believed was The Problem. Turned out that while it was A Problem, it wasn't the necessary focus. (Spoiler alert.) I was the focus. The work that I have done has been pretty huge, actually. 

So while I haven't attended a structured therapy program, I see a counselor on a very regular basis and I won't go back to not speaking with someone. This is necessary for my life. I am happy to talk about any aspect of it.

ALSO. I have just finished a course (in our Social Work program at UNBC) that included a lot of art therapy (in use, specifically with victims of abuse, as that was the focus of the course). I would be super interested in pursuing art therapy. (As a client, not a facilitator.)

On 3/25/2019 at 8:10 PM, hirondelle said:

Is it working? 

I stopped reading it.  Focused on school. (Plus. Life. ) I'LL LET YOU KNOW.

On 3/25/2019 at 7:20 PM, hirondelle said:

Solo

You

Polar