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@Moonhawk your wife has an amazing smile, she's got one of those smiles that just makes you happy looking at it

Today was supposed to be a good day... instead of one where I wake up, look at my phone and cry. It's a good thing my phone was plugged into a charger or I'm pretty sure I would have broken it when I threw it at the wall. Now I have an hour to pretend I'm still sleeping before I have to go downstairs and act like a normal not fucked up human person. I really want to just not leave my bed, to just hide away forever, to just not have to be this anymore. But I can't, I won't because I won't do that to my kids. I grew up with a mother who suffered from depression and I remember how helpless I felt when she wouldn't get out of bed. I try to focus on the good things in my life and there are so many, I have amazing kids, I have a good job and can take care of us, I have friends (although I've kind of pulled away from them but I'm trying not to) why do I let the bad overwhelm me. Fuck love, it's a horrible thing and sometimes I feel like I've done something so wrong in some lifetime and I'm being punished. Like I'm never going to be good enough or that I don't deserve to be happy ~curls up in the corner~

~hugs everyone~ I think it's really good to just be able to talk about these things. And @Aliea I know we're supposed to ignore that last post but I'm right there with that feeling

~snuggles @fox~ thank you it is a horrible feeling. Today was supposed to be a good day. Not a wake up look at my phone and cry day.

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That's awesome @Moonhawk you guys look fantastic!

No it's different @fantasymom Listening to Netflix right now lol

Just started watching season 3 of Zoo when I found it on there today

@Songmistress yours is one of my favorites ~waits for the next installment~

Black Veil Brides - Goodbye Agony

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Yeah sometimes it's all the tears and then raging bitch and then all the tears again and I get the silent loathing too. And then I get to the point where it's total emotional shut down just because I can't take the roller coaster anymore.

Thank you @Timberwolf I'd love to see the mage costume

@hirondelle I love that, especially the house with the tail lol Thank you @Forest Mage My costume I ordered for this year just came in today and apparently I'm going to be little red riding boobs lol. May need to do a little adjusting

@Forest Mage nice! We usually decorate but I need to get new stuff so I don't know if we will this year. Last year I went steampunk for the costume

Pain

Halestorm - Love Bites

Time

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So does anyone else love Halloween? Decorate the house? Go out to costume parties or just dress up? Personally I love Halloween, it's probably my favorite holiday. And since it's right after my birthday I usually dress up and find a costume party somewhere.