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Ice

lol oh look I inspired a how to.....

Sometimes I feel like I want to write again. I used to, a lot, to the point where I have a full beginning, middle and end story somewhere in my house. That one is totally nsfw. But I have a good bunch of a fantasy story somewhere too. And poems... but I haven't written anything in years now.

I don't know why this one amuses me so much but it does...

Read me a story and I'll give you a totally unbiased ~coughiloveenglishaccentscough~ opinion lol

I like that this has that tip of the iceberg feel to it, like you just know there's so much more out there

Well written with a nice little twist

~gentle hugs~

Aren't you supposed to be wearing a cup to protect your delicate bits from fast moving objects?

Thank you @Squarepeg good for you It's hard to be selfish if you're the kind of person who takes care of everyone else. I've found lately though it's getting harder and harder for me to take care of anyone especially me

I'm not ready for snow but it's not far off here. Metric butt ton of snow.. lol yeah same here. I live in the land of "An inch of snow? Hang on I can still find my golf ball" lol. You either learn to live/drive in it or you don't leave your house for 6 months. I love the look of a foot of fresh snow, until I have to shovel it or go out in it... https://funnyshit.com.au/diary_of_a_snow_shoveler.html

Slutever... lol Personally dolls like that kind of creep me out, male or female. I have no issue with toys, realistic or otherwise but the thought of it actually looking like an entire person who is staring at me but not responding... Yeah that doesn't work for me. But then I enjoy the response from a partner almost more than anything else. And to the original article and the way men responded to the female doll. I think it's not men in general but a certain personality type (that really can be male or female) I also think that if it was a group that did this it may have been some just following the group mind and not necessarily all of them wanting that originally. I do personally find a lot of dark things intriguing but there's always a level of trust and consent given.

Chrome

Ummm like 5 am until 10 am yesterday? Central us time

It's not doing it for me at all now. But earlier it was every time I clicked on the forums in the drop down menu it would log me out and then it would take me 2 tries to sign in and when I did it would take me to my blog first then I'd click on forums and start the whole process over until I gave up lol. And this was on chrome on my phone

Yeah it's logging me out all the time now

I gave myself away a long time ago. I've been trying to reclaim myself but it's hard going. And there have been some setbacks along the way... it's in my nature to give but I know giving too much isn't good for me

Five Finger Death Punch - Wash It All Away

Dog

Vitamin C

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How do you know when you spend too much time online? When you have dreams about people you only know online... I just had a dream that I met @hirondelle because somehow we were in the same town and we ran into eachother and were like omg!!! And then we hung out and took selfies and laughed and had a wonderful time and@Timberwolfwas jealous cause he wasn't there. And it was so happy and then I woke up and was sad cause it was only a dream and I couldn't go back to it. And then I realised it was 3:33 am which is creepy cause it's the witching hour and now I can't fall back asleep. And then I started over analysing my life because that's what your brain does when you wake up in the middle of the night right? And I felt pathetic because I have no life outside of my family and I haven't seen my best not online friends in months because I'm depressed and I work nights and live in another world from the rest of people who work in the daytime (aka sleeping hours). And I feel like I spend my alone time lately talking to myself on here cause everyone else has a life and I'm the only one on here. And then of course I start thinking about my fucked up excuse for a relationship and I get depressed and angry and I feel like I'll never truly be happy. And then I wonder do I even deserve to be happy? I think I did something truly awful to someone in a past life and I'm being punished for it. And then I think well maybe if I ended the fucked up relationship I could wake up next to someone and not be alone but the thought of waking up next to someone not him kind of repulses me and I don't want to be with someone solely because I don't want to wake up alone. And then my hand starts to go numb because I either have carpal tunnel or something is fucked in my back and it momentarily distracts me as I try to shake/stretch my hand out of pins and needles and now I realise I'm rambling like an idiot but that's what I made this blog for so I could ramble and not bother the rest of the board so it's ok... right? And earlier tonight my daughter saw me on here and was like who are these people? Are you whoring around online with random guys? Where's the shower guy? (Cause I was on voice chat with @MaleConfessor one time and I was in the bathroom part hiding from them because they wouldn't stop asking who i was talking to and part because I was getting ready to take a shower before work) and then she was teasing me because for her people online are never who they say they are and I tried to explain I've known these people forever and they're awesome and we met on a book message board so then she said I was a geek lol and I was like yeah so... And then my son was like you should talk to Spike (guy he works with that I've met like twice but they insist I flirted with and I probably did but it wasn't flirting with intent) cause Spikes looking. And then my daughter went back to me whoring around online and poor Garrett and ugh... And this is a tiny glimpse into my head and why I my brain is never still...

Just watched the new one. I enjoyed it although the original was still better I think. The new one was a beautiful tribute to the original though.

Just went and watched the new Bladerunner with my mom, enjoyed it although the first was still better. It was beautifully done though.