Moonhawk

Rewatching The Witcher

Onward Jumanji: the next level And to keep me laughing I rewatched the first 2 Austin Powers

I'm going stir crazy, try to play video games and keep myself busy with the kids but with just one tv in the living room the kids drive me crazy they have their own tv in each room but they want the big tv. I need a bigger house or finish their living room(play room) upgrade. By the time I'm done with work I just don't have the energy to work on their living room. Just have to commit before I loose my mind. Sorry rambling along so tired of this crap feel like I'm in a bad apocalyptic movie that doesnt end

((Need to dedicate some time to back read but we would need more players))

I've definitely changed

Nailed it! Love this show

(I would love to...don't know how much time I can dedicate during day time trying to save our company, but I can make time at night)

Anxiety and agoraphobia is killing me as well. One thing I think about to ease when I do have to go out is thinking of cardi b saying Karanaaaa Virazzzz every time I read or hear Corona virus.

But you have to, it's like watching a train wreck or a car crash you dont want to see it but you do anyways

I'm ok and checking in hows everyone else

Tiger king like the rest of the world. So entertaining

Too many to list now we are watching westworld finally and it's so fucking good..

I tried ebooks and audio books. Nothing like the hard copy of the book. Audio books dont work for me because my ADD doesnt allow me to concentrate on whoever or whatever is being read. E-BOOKs I tried but since I use it on my phone any stupid little notification takes me down the rabbit hole. I go from ohh i need to finish that mission on that game to shopping on amazing to facebook back to the game, then searching bs, bird, stone and who the fuck knows and I forgot that I had started reading a book

Checking in, having the kids out of school has helped with time with them. My agoraphobia and anxiety rear their heads more frequently since the outbreak, however still going to work. Having your own business and employees who depend on you is hard. My Filipino teams is on lockdown so most are working from home. However not the same for my Miami team yet. I fear the worse is yet to come after speaking to two friends who work in government. Hope all are safe

The Irishman on netflix. It was ok

Sorry for your loss The fact that my anxious thoughts are still around even if I am more functional.

Sliding glass doors stuck, I pulled hard it got unstuck and it crushed my finger

I posted mine just dont know if I did in the right place

Spiraling down the rabbit hole of anxiety yet again

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It's been a while and I promised myself I would post. Today I cant sleep so here I am posting. I would like to say I am much better yet not at 100%. I can go to most places I used to and some new ones. Still crowded places and long trips give me anxiety. My therapist says I have been her best client and that it is crazy the way I approach things, let's say i jump in head first most times. As i was getting better I had an accident which basically almost amputated the tip of my ring finger. I had to go to the hospital and later on get surgery. That entire week was the most anxious since the trip. However I have kept up with my excersises(long walks), prayer, and meditation which all have helped tremedously. Now I have a huge trip that I need to do, it is a 30 hour flight to the Phillipines where I have our call center and I feel like all progress I have made is for nothing because I cant make myself even purchase the plane tickets let alone look at the hotels. Therapist says I have all the tools just lack the confidence in myself. She as well as my wife are 100% confident that I can do this yet I am afraid to even take step one. Trying to work things out with my battle inside my head, let's see where this road takes me.

What the goddess said works for me and I understand what you are going through. I can recomend checking out upwork.com it is short term contracts for it people like yourself but it will keep you busy, paid and no need for a vehicle. Just a suggestion. Try to stay strong

Well I made it to the trip, i did the 4 hour ride drugged up on xanax but i made it. I'm on day 3 and i was doing good until today the whole family decided to take a trip to a pier to go fishing. I had a panic attack and I couldnt go. So they went without me. The worse part is the thought of letting my family down. I have always been the one that got "my crap together" or I pretend I do and this whole ordeal makes me ashamed of even facing my family. This sucks and i know i cant rush it but fuck i hate letting people down specially my family.