Kenai

While my ataxia is a broken brain thing, I'm pretty sure it doesn't fall under the same category as mental illnesses.

Two years ago I was fat. 5 foot 2 and 190 pounds fat. I hit my weight goal of 125 last week. I haven't hit that weight again since, I'm still bouncing between that and 128, but eventually I'll figure out this maintaining business. I didn't do any special diets or anything. I mainly just cut the amount of calories I was eating until I matched actual serving sizes on the food. I also cut out soda, eating out a lot, and easy to make meals. (aka frozen foods). I feel so much better after, and the amount of energy I have seems insane to me. I guess I just felt like bragging a little.

Yes. Was half asleep reading that and didn't realize by forest you meant the title of the rp forum.

*drags self into post* ugh. Morning. Blarg.

I think its despicable what the media has twisted it into being about. Most of my debate points have been said by others, so I'll just leave an observation. Media portray the black lives matter as violent. Yes, some riot as all protests happen. And truth be told, a lot of them are more violent than I would like, but I'm speaking from a position of privilege. I imagine if I had to worry about getting shot over the color of my skin, or worry about my children getting shot I'd be a little violent as well. So the media asks sarcastically why they can't protest in peace. So the NFL players do. They found a peaceful way to protest and gain attention. And then the media distorts their message into one of hate, and still points the finger at the other protestors that they're too violent.

If that was started up again, I'd be there with freaking bells on.

I'm glad for this so much. Yeah, I followed most of you on facebook but it was just I don't know... personal and impersonal at the same time.

I'm pretty sure I was bossy before the spawn arrived.

It's a genetic disorder that messes with the motor cortex. The docs throw around the term atrophy a lot. The simplest explanation I've found is that in a normal brain the motor cortex sends out signals to the muscles, but its all the same signal. My brain sends out different signals. So if I want to talk, instead of my legs getting the same message, they get conflicting messages. Basically anything in my body controlled by a muscle has the potential to mess up. Some lovely side effects are: Difficulty walking (I look like a drunk person) Slurring of speech choking/coughing uncontrollably confusion memory issues sleep issues temporary paralysis easily angered (brain shorts out when stressed and can't process emotions well) muscle weakness (I've noticed this mostly in my hands/arms. I drop things a lot.) spasms in the muscles eye issues (sometimes my vision will go fuzzy for a few seconds) Currently I'm still able to walk mostly. I have a cane I use that helps on my lighter days, and a rollator (old lady walker) on the worse days. I've found I do need a wheelchair for long trips, like a day at the zoo or something otherwise the strain makes me a worthless lump for a couple days. Because its episodic, not every day is like that. I have days where I"m perfectly fine. The doctors tell me eventually I'll lose that, but for now its something I'm happy for. Things that can trigger an "attack" Stress Exercise (which made it really hard to lose all that weight but by god I did it!) Caffeine alcohol heat/cold extremes (considering winters are -60 here, I"m pretty much a lump in winter) Sorry if its too long, but you did ask.

Pizza. Because my toddler decided to get into the meat I was thawing.. Him AND the couch got a bath.

naw, its how we offer prayers the the goddess!

I had two character in the forest rpg! One that interacted delightfully with Red's characters. My current story is the ruling emperor is killed by his son. He was an evil dude and the son thought he was saving the world by killing him. The main character of the novel is his sister, who is left to clean up his mess. It would be cleaner to have the killer son as the main character, but he's not sane anymore (magic has consequences folks) and I was struggling to write him sympathetically.

I made you join! Mwhahaha.

I think a lot of mom's have that thought. I love my little guy more than I have words for, and I still have times where I think back fondly before he was born and I just had all that time. Life was duller then, but so much easier. *hugs* Having brief thoughts like that doesn't make you a bad mom. It makes you human.

holy fuck. I'm glad that out of the chaos, your family and friends made it through. That part must be a huge relief to you.

ten years later, I'm still holding out hope for restoring the forest rpg. But I don't think enough of the players are back yet. *crosses fingers*

I've noticed it seems to log me out when I receive a notification.

Glad you're here. Any more news from Puerto Rico?

This is in response to the worst mom in the world comment... 1) are your kids fed and clothed? 2) do they know you love them? If yes to both, you have a long way to go before you hit worst mom in the world status.

Not only is this place back, but chatting with all of you feels natural... which is saying a lot because I hate talking to people.

That there are past members that will never join again. RIP Wings of Fyre.

I'm on a desktop and its doing the same thing.

that makes sense. Thank you.

bird

whats the deal with it? How does one get it?