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Tagging @Timberwolf because he is a yoga teacher... I would recommend hanging forward at the waist, like a traditional standing forward bend but with your arms folded loose rather than trying to touch the floor, also lying on the floor on your back with your legs up a wall

Ah yes @Death the banner of the Dark oblivion army, made for us by our own machine master Melas Zepheos *whips it out* The cage I remember vaguely. Was Propher in it? I also remember you created a chamber where we had to confront a worst fears.

Ok that made my day... couple of days... week even . Thank you for returning @Death it means a lot.

Stealing these ^ from @Timberwolf and adding... Supernatural Vikings Black Sails NCIS Deadwood Rome

Yes @fox sent me a booklet thing with some proteiny snack items. I just have to get my hand started on some of the ingredients. After I posted this I remember I have some strawberry protein powder... so I made a shake. Nasty but t will do until I have had the chance to buy all the tings. Water wise I drink a lot. If I drink anymore I just pee all night haha. I don't think that's my problem. I wasn't actually hungry today. My problem is I eat my feelings.... all of them, happy? Celebrate with food! Sad? Commiserate with food! Stressed? Comfort self with food. I need to retrain myself. I never really quit smoking... just replaced cigarettes with carbs.

OMG Welcome @Death!

Yay in time for the one year anniversary. (Btw King Bumiphol's cremation is on 26 October... If they have a special magazine I will get you one).

What you mean I might not be slim tomorrow?!?! Oh FFS! lol yeah I realise this is going to be a long slow journey. I actually want it to be slow. But yeah I made the Christmas benchmark just because I read it is good to have short, medium and long term goals. If I don't hit it I will keep going anyway. Just keep cheering me along ok?

/ gazing into the mirror / lost in thought / I am still hirondelle, physically at least.... / she turns to admire her body from all angles / long jet black hair with a slight wave / skin like silk, the colour of milky coffee / athletic figure, the body of a killer / she winces and feels a thought slip away from her / although she feels no connection of self to this physical form she can she enjoy possessing it / If I am she, why do I feel so different? ~ a knock on the door ~ / startle / in the underworld hiro was never alone / how does the rest of the world handle privacy / if one is in a room naked and one hears a knock what does one do? / hesitation / / decides... and once decided nods / eyes on the door reflected in the mirror - she keeps her back to it and speaks clearly / enter

So thanks to your inspiration and support, I am trying once again to fix myself. My fat mess of a body and my shitty relationship with food and exercise. This time I am trying low carb. I have dialled in 30/40/30 macros, but today I am way off 11/45/44 and stupidly under on calories - I am not even willing to admit how few calories I had according to MFP.... I just hope the omelette I had for breakfast was actually more than the one I chose in the damn app. I just don't know what else to eat. But I managed to keep the carbs low lmao. Question: Can you suggest protein snacks... aside from boiled eggs which get boring fast. Sorry rambling but today is day 1, again. Starting weight is 180lbs. First target is under 170lbs by Christmas. Should be easy right?

Aw @Kethlia and @Tika thank you!! I will definitely make more, I do love a good ramble.

I was hoping someone would come in and justify the use of ppl of colour because I didn't feel up to it haha. I would love to live in a world where minorities are just people... but I don't. It isn't just America or the west - I am sure you have seen how Ethnic majority Burmese are treating Rohingya at the moment. I wish I didn't need to use this phrase, too. But the reality is that we need a term when we discuss issues like race in a neutral way.

Bumpity bump

Don't make me ban you both!

Just hang in there @Tika from a distance if need be (so you don't get any egg on ya so to speak) but if this is who you want be true to you.

Think so... I made the forum. It is visible now. I just called them what they are rather than using poetic names because I would like people to discover them easily. At least to begin with.

Lovely story @Moonhawk While Wolf and I have a love story we are very proud of, it involves the dissolution of two marriages one of which included children. Therefore I don't like to narrate it in this way,,. because to do so involved glossing of some agonising things all for the sake of the 'and they all lived happily ever after' conclusion. Of course the marriages were likely to end anyway... and I do believe we were meant to be together.. But yeah, most people here know our story - and like many real life love stories, it's not always a fairy tale. Ok so there is a wolf in this story, so it is pretty fairy taley... but you know what I mean. We broke some eggs while making our omelette. Mix those metaphors ffs. You will get there @Tika just keep writing your story. Even though some chapters may be written in blood and tears.

nether @Moonhawk

Amazing progress @FireNymph you must be so happy. It has been an incredible journey for you and I know you have had to shed more than pounds to get to where you are today! I am super proud of you, and also v inspired.

*hugs* Arguing on the internet full stop. Never worth it*. *speaking from lengthy experience

lol @Phoenix

Why do I feel like I just let a demon sweet talk me into being set free? @fox

Did you listen to my audio blog? So far we are on a no rules approach with most things... self restraint is your only parent. When it comes to language I personally enjoy the odd sweary post if you can swear well (seriously some ppl can't) and if it has a reason. As in expresses a strong emotion, not just strewn around because it is the only adjective you know. You would pass both those benchmarks Inthink @fox If ppl start swearing a lot and gratuitously we reserve the right to rein it in... because taste and whatnot. With image content... no nips and lips or dicks is our standard for the general board. Textual erotica can be linked to (I have already done this once, the observant among you may have noticed) but unless we have a forum specifically for this it shouldn't be posted on the board. So far guests can read all content so although our members are all over the age of 18 this may not apply to our 'audience'

Sorry @Kethlia *hugs*