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Red Hot Chilli Pepper - Blood Sugar Sex Magik Nirvana - Nevermind Metallica - Black Album Did you know... not only were all 3 albums released in the same year, 1991, but they were released almost within a month of each other; The Black Album (actually titled Metallica) was Aug 12th. Blood Sugar Sex Magik and Nevermind were BOTH released on the same day Sept 24. It is like I woke up and gave a fuck about music for about 50 days and then went back to sleep.

A few of you have asked about The Underworld. It was, is and always will be the most precious RP I have wasted my time in. It was created in PI and I dragged it around to every fantasy themed discussion board I joined, or helped run ever since. However I won't be starting it here... I chatted with Kim and we felt it was appropriate to share why. Our beloved friend Bob Forsythe passed away on July 25 2012. He played Ogre in the Underworld and although he no longer posted often when he did is was a little bit of wonderful. Ogre loved two things: Guinness and women. He really did love all of us, but one Underworldly woman had a special place in his heart (and on his lap) and that was our Vyxen. When, a year after the Bob's death, we decided to close The Northlands, neither Kim or I had posted much in there for a while; and yet it was - to both of us - the place where he was. We could feel his spirit in the space and we didn't want to leave him, but we knew we couldn't bring him any further. So we decided to leave him there as our eternal guardian - and, perhaps inevitably, Vyxen chose to remain with him. So on July 25th 2013 - exactly one year after Bob passed away Hirondelle sealed Vyxen and Ogre in The Underworld together and removed all access and then a day later we closed the board completely. The Underworld can never be retrieved - we can access it in our hearts and minds but it will never exist digitally, and new stories cannot be shaped there (though if you buy us a Guinness I am sure we could be convinced to tell you some old ones). So as far is this world is concerned there is no Underworld and no Vyxen (though we are fortunate enough to have a lovely @fox who is very like her). The Underworld is not gone, It exists beyond our reach and I am sure a beautiful story is being written there... but it is a private love story and one we will never get to read. We love you Ogre, rest well Bob. ~ If you or someone you know is feeling suicidal or just needs someone to talk to, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. To learn more about the warning signs of suicide, head here. List of international suicide hotlines IMAlive is a text based crisis line for people who don't like to use a phone

Yay @Gwaelyn so lovely to have you home - are you rocking the original avatar too? or just sthg v similar?

yes it could actually, but only if you want that part of you to heal

Interesting, I love how your journey has evolved. Social work can be extremely stressful but it sounds like you have thought out a good counselling based niche angle on it that should make it manageable for you personally. I am pretty happy with what I do careerwise (I make language learning mobile apps for the British Council) and if that folds I can always go back to teaching which I love. I guess my dream is to make a passive income somehow... e-books, art, online courses, videos. My 'what' changes, but I would like something else. My own business. But not a physical traditional business. I have also started studying shamanism and also find end of life journeying interesting (it's called psychopomp), along with soul retrieval. It is basically counselling plus fantasy fiction. I would like to explore that more... but more as a therapeutic journey for myself and friends at the moment.

I'm sitting in a tropical country laughing at you

Yeah when you start a thread you get to add tags which are useful to aid in searching for content or simply amusing yourself with your ironic tag writing skillz

I know! I feel like I won the lottery

/ Leans against her friend as they walk slowly through the palace grounds / It's quite a story Leia, and terribly painful. / looks around vaguely confused for a moment / shakes her head / Would you mind if I rest first and tell you later? / reaches the palace and looks gravely into the woman's eyes / I should tell you one thing, before I enter your home. I am no longer Hiro ~ [bed time irl lol]

I actually love raisins - also adding raisins to food keeps wolves away so more for me #doublewin. I will definitely take a look at Betty (yes please - hirondellei at yahooooo dot com) though it would be REALLY nice to be able to cut my ties with sweets - it is also good to be realistic and have a healthy version to hand. When I fail, I fail fast... and hard... and for lengthy periods of time. I just urgh... feel I have been here forever, and it is like quicksand - I struggle and get deeper. Like you say it is tied in with the mental health bullshit too. Help would be appreciated, I feel hopeful - but also I am in that place where you are scared to feel hopeful. *hug*

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I'm a bit of a mess. I have tried to lose weight several times over the last few years and I have always end up gaining. So although I have lost at least 30lbs I have lost them in phases and gained them back between each 'good' phase, plus more. I am now heavier than I have ever been. It is... unpleasant. For me. To be this size. When things are bad I binge (but I don't purge sadly), Even when things aren't bad I can eat pretty compulsively because I THINK I am borderline diabetic and I THINK I am super sensitive to carbs so carby stuff is quite addictive to me. Basically when I am eating badly I feel very hungry within a couple of hours of a meal. All I can think about is food. It is sad and weak and I feel a bit ashamed of it. I am obsessed with fully raw vegan YouTubers and so when I try to lose weight I usually try sthg influenced by this approach - smoothies and mountains of fruit and salad. But slowly I am realising my body is more satisfied with protein and fat. I feel at my best when I reduce carbs as far as possible. But this diet doesn't really appeal to me. I just suspect I have more chance of success on it. So I am going to give the low carb thing a shot. Not fully keto (I would probably never poop again with that much fat in my diet, lol) around 30/40/30. See how that goes. I just need to pick myself up in to believe I can change... when you have failed repeatedly you start to loose faith in yourself. So I am hoping you guys will help.

39 [you change the colour in the editor - first box @Aliea]

I'm channelling Eddie Murphy ~ is secretly a pirate

adventure

nonsense

as she believed

Has discovered our new emotes [Don't worry...Northlanders are like a box of chocolates - whichever one I have in my mouth at any given time is my favourite]

/she closes her eyes and leans into the embrace / so vulnerable out here / she tries to hide it and clears her throat / so... I appear to find myself homeless, and some how... other /she turns to face Liea and smiles confidently / she hopes it is confidently / Do you have a spare room? Until I can sort myself out... /her voice fades / suddenly she feels weak / she tightens her legs so they don't fold under her /

/ a mist swirls and thickens gradually / almost imperceptibly / until she is there / and once she is there she is so present / so very material / one would find it impossible to imagine she never was/ /she looks around / inhales deeply as if savouring wine/ fresh air, well this is different /she makes her way through the gates / up the path / to the palace/

is secretly my favourite

I don't like Stephen Fry - I know, controversial right?

Thank you for sharing. I don't really have anything intelligent or useful to say because I have never been there - and I think it is one of those things where it doesn't help coming from one who hasn't been there. Like I can't take diet and fitness advice from someone who has never had a weight problem and I couldn't tolerate non-smokers advising me on how to quit. But I do understand... I have been there in my head enough. I understand why you do it. Anyway I love your courage for posting this, and I love you. Keep fighting.

Manca is here... she just chose a different name this time

As in Chelsea/Pyro and Chris/Reddragon?